1. |
Here I Am, Vulnerabilty
04:26
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Board me up
Keep me grounded in my cage
While i bottle up my rage
And bury it deep
And i'll grow up
So every time i close my eyes
I fear the myriad of lies
Tucked within me
So I, I defy
Whatever these bigots tell me
And ask why
Do i cry
Every time
By just the thought of hugging my own brother
Tell me why
Why do i try
So hard
Well these walls
Were constructed secretly
Seemed to be improvement to me
Are graffitied poorly
With safety and necessity
Preventative personality
Half assed vulnerability
So I, I will defy
My cycle of self indulgence
Then ask why
Do i hide
From the fire
When i'm so intent to be the one to stand and fight
Well no more
I am here
We need to be loved much more than we think
In this battle where it's easier to just sink
So here i am vulnerability, take me as you will
I am that i am, as i climb up this steep hill
So I, I will defy
My normalized barriers
And tell them why
I won't hide, or bide my time
I'll break free from what separates you and I
And be free, within the fire
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2. |
No Sympathy
03:55
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Indifference is a luxury
To those on the sidelines and who make the rules
But did you know, the system you adore
Is rigged so that the poor stay poor with no chance of liberty
Ya it's all fucked up
And i don't wanna know what the future holds
But they want me to have no choice
Its all fucked up with these bills that we have to pay
And the others worse off get no sympathy
Punching up and stuck is just reality
And ya,
There's plenty folks out there
That don't even seem to care,
About tryna get back up at all
A lot of them give up and I can't blame them
Just look at the shit situation they’re in, is it a sin?
Incarceration,
Discrimination
Disinformation
Dislocation
You make a choice
With what your given
Now if you were them, what would you do then?
We're all fucked up
For letting this be reality
Is it the governmental absence of human decency
Ya its all fucked up with the bills they pay
And the others left behind are stuck in drudgery
Staying blind to this is our fucked up luxury
If i weren't so lucky with the life I got
Who knows if I'd ever even get a shot
My friend I walking down the street met a homeless man,
Just looking for something to eat, and reaches out his hand
Then my friend said "man, these bums are bumming me out, i don't like it"
And i said "good, now you could
You could do something about it"
So lets go
I don't accept this status quo
There's no formula for life that much we know
If you think that this poverty is their fault
Then we'll do this all on our own
Ya, those who conserve all these ceilings made of glass
Shouldn't dare
Arm those
They've oppressed and opposed
When all they needed was a chance
You turned your back without a glance
Well soon you'll see what true success means.
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3. |
Piece of Mind
02:33
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On and on today
Can’t breathe as I extrapolate
My train of thought and emotions all this time
Could I really say
I am making sense of anything
While I can't even find my piece of mind
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
Well I write I sing I play
I work my ass off every day
What really matters at the end of time?
Does the progress that I make
Help me swallow the hard pills to take
And remind me of the reasons not to die?
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
Check my PMA
Life's one big fuck you parade
So i'm just tryna find my piece of mind
Being a blank slate ain't all it’s cut out to be
When your God holes filled with uncertainty
If I choose to live this way
Well I’ll never see the day
Where I am finally able grasp my piece of mind
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
The mottos and the mantras on my wall
They don't mean shit, if they just stall
The inevitable and coming fall
All of every day
Almost every single day
I’m just trying to find my piece of mind
My piece of mind
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4. |
Half Here
02:28
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So I Found half of cigarette
Found bout half a beer
Found a half a bowl of weed
And yet I’m still half here
Will these hazy eyes ever go away?
Or comfort me enough to stay?
What rings inside my bones
And am I strong enough to call it my own
Well this ain’t for me
No, maybe this ain’t for me
No i don’t know, whats meant to be
But maybe this
Maybe this ain’t for me
Angels guide me here and there
But nothing seems to fix my stare
I’ll go along a different road
And still end up here
Everything feels different now
And only for my heavy brow
I’m winding down the stairs
And don’t know what awaits me there
So Maybe this ain’t for me
No Maybe this ain’t for me
No I don’t know, whats meant to be
But maybe this
Maybe this ain’t for me
Ink it in my skin,
This windy road map towards repair
Oh you’ll never understand
So now you’re only half here
So we’ll sit upon the stoop
And gaze on all our shiny fears
Cause after all we don’t know shit and
We’re only half here
We’re only half here, ya we’re only half here
No, none of us know shit and now we’re only half here
We’re only half here, ya we’re only half here
No, none of us know shit and now we’re only half here
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5. |
Fuck My Pride
02:40
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Fuck my pride, fuck these flags I try to hide behind
Fuck the lies I stand for when I'm partisan and blind
Fuck my pride, when others fall to the waist-side
Fuck my pride, fuck my pride
Is it possible, we too often confuse, morality and humanity, for politics and parties
Is it probable, that some overview effect, could help us see reality and Flip this in our eyes to find this
Us verse them mentality will only get us nowhere, cause no matter how You put it, we're only being selfish
If I get the strength to climb, over my tall incessant hitches, maybe we Can try to turn more of our borders into bridges
Fuck my pride, fuck these flags I try to hide behind
Fuck the lies I stand for when I'm partisan and blind
Fuck my pride, when others fall to the waist-side
Fuck my pride, fuck my pride
Oh Humanity, ya what does that mean to me, i use it so loosely, but Perceive it as i do and you can
Surpass ideologies that stricken all of our sanity
Hammer down these narrow tunnels that make us all feel safety
Because we are so much more than petty arguments and bubbled lives
Fat sensational appetites and walls around our minds
It's easy enough for me to say, over four chords, how it should be
When i'm locked up in my room away from everybody
So fuck this fuckin song, and fuck my fuckin thoughts,
All i ever want is for folks to stop judging each other
Maybe if we breathe deep enough we could just see,
That this has always been about more than you or me
So I'll pull me off the cross of conceited superiority
Cloudy egotism masking common sense with vanity
A global view ideally, but what are we realistically?
Transcendence necessary if we want that kinda world
Fuck my pride, fuck these flags I try to hide behind
Fuck the lies I stand for when I'm partisan and blind
Fuck my pride, when others fall to the waist-side
Fuck my pride, fuck my pride
Fuck my pride, fuckin burn it to the ground
Give me the match, i'll light it up, and bridge my thoughtless gaps
Fuck my pride, when others fall to the waist-side
Fuck my pride, fuck my pride
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6. |
Bad Habits
02:40
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Its not as cold in the sun
When life feels like a hit and run
I beg myself just to get up,
Up in the morning
With my shades all shut
I feel this weight on my neck
It's bringin’ me down
And my heart beats through my chest
My head spins around
And I don’t mind
If I don’t know which way to go
Ya thats just fine
This rope that binds me's got no hold
For now I’m stuck to the dirt
And sure it feels like a curse
But its just a string, a string made of twine
Ya although it may hurt
Soon, soon I’m gonna fly
After I bite
Chew myself right through these binds
And I’ll be fine
My teeth will be sharp and clean enough
Clean enough to CUT ME FREE
YA SET ME FREE
CLEAN ENOUGH TO SET ME FREE
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7. |
The Way Things Go
04:17
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Well it seems like everyday, there are new ways to take your sanity away
And i don't just mean the pills we take, or the x-rays escaping from the television screens
Who we are as humans is killing us and leading us astray
Conversations don't exist, at least not where they matter, well we're sick of these pissing contests
Cause if I can't trust the ones in charge, to find out the solutions,
Then tell me whats a boy like me to do?
Criminals run the show all while we're shackled by necessity
And wipe their ass with paper bills we ration off so carefully
The food they say is safe to eat, These medicines will help your brain
Until you find out otherwise as you writhe in pain
Decide the final scores and find that none of us are winners
Too busy fighting over who's penis or net worth is bigger
Hiding behind computer screens, we don't listen we just speak
And we find ourselves in the places, that we criticize so passionately
Trying to save democracy, despite state sanctioned poverty
Pretending to be allies, wolverines in black sheep clothing, see
This can't just be the way things go
I'm witnessing coalitions, but at the same time great division
Cause no one even tries to understand
What you feel is personal, not necessarily logical
It's easier to hate someone when you don't have to relate
Well let me tell you something, the world isn't so black and white
It never was, like you make it out to be
Fact and fiction intertwine, like cancer from the power lines
And fear is now the emperor behind these picket signs
Nowadays i fear far much more than i can trust
With every web of lies i break they endure and pile up
Until the queen widow dancing circles around my brain
Sucks me dry and forces me up into this game
Imagine how different things could be, if people could admit that they were wrong
Don't take it from me, but i think we'd be much better off
No this can't just be the way things go
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8. |
Day Terrors
05:16
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There's fire in the sky, Yes we're all gonna die
But wake up, it was a dream
But then I look outside, and the crowds are whaling loud
Disdain deafening my ears
What good is philosophy when, You're skeletons are trapped
In the closet with your shame
You could write me pretty words , You can try to make me weep
But will i care when god or satan finally comes for me?
Go to the store, go to the mall
Shop for all the meanings in life
That you can't find on your own
And become a plastic doll
And as I'm walking around, in this daze of commitment
I wonder how much of this is real
Public servants controlling the emotions of the masses
Little do we know its just a speech writer's show
And no matter what side you hear, it all just sounds the same
Empty promises and mistakes, as if they have no blame
Gaslighting themselves to believe they are the ones
To save us from ourselves
Well who the fuck asked for your help?
Maybe your love will save me, Or maybe i can save me
From myself, from my deities
Or my demons, or my guardian angels
Maybe they're all the same
And the man on the tv, telling me who i should be
Well i suppose that might help me
Cause who am i to say, What i want or what i need
Am i even this body? Oh please tell me thats not the case
Hands up, heads down, whisper your sweet prayers and kiss your ass goodbye
Cause Theres a man on the chair, as innocent as can be
But the color of his skin is just enough to say guilty, so tell me
When will they say, these sins just aint okay
Thats it thats it, we've had enough
Well Your divisive propaganda don't speak for us no more
We're cutting our puppet strings, we're gonna go out and help the poor
All these rapists, pedophiles,
Millionaire cheap-skate thieves
Racists, fascists, hypocrites, and all who oppose peace
They won't have a place to hide, from this thing they call justice
And this nightmare, that I woke up to
Will become a dream
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9. |
2am
04:30
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Don't hide, I can see through your hands to your eyes
Take your time, i've got all night
You say I wouldn't understand, when all was said and done
I don't mind, i can at least be your audience of one
So hold my hand, tell me what you want to say
It’s 2am, but just know, i'm here to stay
I won't have the answers to fix the way things are, and i can't speak for Anybody else
But don't forget, i won't be far
I fear all of this is running you out of breath
And into the ground, just trying to find a place to rest
When your heart feels like an ocean
And your life like a sinking ship
And the compass you hold so dear
No longer makes sense
Just hold my hand, tell me what you want to say
It’s 2am, but just know, i'm here to stay
I won't have the answers to fix the way things are, and i can't speak for Anybody else
But don't forget, i won't be far
It's not simple, i know
When life takes a hold even when you say no
All i hope is that you hear this and you know you have a place to go
Cause i know that this ain’t, how u want to be
While you sit there empty hearted and tell me
"All i wanna feel is like I’m doing something right."
"All i wanna feel is like I’m doing something right."
"All i wanna feel is like I’m doing something right."
So hold my hand, tell me what you want to say
It’s 2am, but just know, i'm here to stay
I won't have the answers to fix the way things are, and i can't speak for Anybody else
But don't forget, i won't be far
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10. |
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I hope that you think about Where we could all end up
With poison in our lungs or our eyes swollen shut
On the same dirt ground It's destined to come that day for you and me
There's not much to differ us, it's now so plain to see
Devastate and eradicate all the life on land
The oceans filling up with much more water than we planned
We all become amphibious but only once we've evolved
It's too late for you and me, but hey our problems have been solved
Cause as the acid rain falls
Our bodies decompose
The maggots eat our skin
Until we're nothing left but bones
Marauders and passers by
Loot our belongings for their own
I have nothing, you have nothing, I guess nothing's set in stone
Volcanoes or asteroids make dust cover sky
Global epidemics making people run and hide
Politicians getting pissed and blowing up the sun
Our own robot creations, well we've lost and now they've won
Aliens, if they exist, would just sit back and laugh
Recalling their dumb predecessors who wrote their own epitaph
Ecological downfall and leaders giving up
Alright God, let's reboot this earth, ONE LAST BOTTOMS UP!
And after it all, the centuries pass
Maybe humans will revive
It took all of this for you to see past your suit and tie
Our opinions never meant anything and now you clearly see
We were all just left to die, you and me, equally
Eventually oh eventually
Eventually oh eventually
It didn't take much for you to become the same pile of ash as me
You and me yes all of us we all die eventually
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Joe Billy Clifton, New Jersey
Introspective Acoustic Punk.
Just trying to bring people together, one song at a time.
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